I may be justifying my actions. Or just explaining why an inconsiderate action (and godmodding, which is the reason why I was wary of playing a god in the first place, is inconsiderate in any situation) turned into something that I honestly can't handle in-character.
Maybe. And maybe she, who did know, since obviously she is reading my posts, that I'm in the middle of too great a load to handle already, could have considered moving a major plot point forward. Sometimes, considering the state of the other muns CAN make timing important, you know. Which is among the reasons why I haven't posted that fic for Ellen - because Jag has her plate full, and I don't want to subject her to the Paul bleed, in whichever direction it goes, that it will elicit. Consideration. Communication. Attention. Besides, yes, I am pissed off. In the post itself, I did not name names, not even the set of circumstances. It really is not often that I am this angry, and no, I do not claim that I'm perfect or faultless. Or that I have sane cope at the moment. Or any cope. There are good reasons why I have been offline on IMs for a day before that even happeend.
It's godmodding. She doesn't need my permission to do anything, but if she does want me to play around, major plot points need heads-up. It's common courtesy; missing it is a major knee-jerk for me, because I've run into one person too many who didn't extend it, and that resulted in being THIS close to me shutting down any RP. At the very least, it turns 'pretendy fun time games' into wtff? I'm outta here. And ... right, I haven't taken part of the plotting. There wasn't a google doc - which you two decided to crap over the plotting in, anyway; nor have I had suggestions when you were wondering how to get something done.
I know for a fact that neither me, nor Anna, had any clue about that. ANY. There wasn't an ooc post in the journal, there wasn't a note where all of us would be guaranteed to see it, let alone the courtesy to wait for an acknowledgment. (And yes, I do wait for acknowledgment in cases such as these. I can point out examples.)
If mentioning something that jabbed into a spot that was already raw passive aggressive, without naming names and without calling people out, sure. I was passive aggressive. I am stepping back; Ellen is on hiatus, which is as far back as I have ever - ever - stepped back with a muse. I honestly clear with her - and wait for her response about it - MUCH smaller things that happen with common playthings. I did expect the same level of respect and consideration as I extend.
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Date: 2009-11-16 10:39 pm (UTC)I may be justifying my actions. Or just explaining why an inconsiderate action (and godmodding, which is the reason why I was wary of playing a god in the first place, is inconsiderate in any situation) turned into something that I honestly can't handle in-character.
Maybe. And maybe she, who did know, since obviously she is reading my posts, that I'm in the middle of too great a load to handle already, could have considered moving a major plot point forward. Sometimes, considering the state of the other muns CAN make timing important, you know. Which is among the reasons why I haven't posted that fic for Ellen - because Jag has her plate full, and I don't want to subject her to the Paul bleed, in whichever direction it goes, that it will elicit. Consideration. Communication. Attention. Besides, yes, I am pissed off. In the post itself, I did not name names, not even the set of circumstances. It really is not often that I am this angry, and no, I do not claim that I'm perfect or faultless. Or that I have sane cope at the moment. Or any cope. There are good reasons why I have been offline on IMs for a day before that even happeend.
It's godmodding. She doesn't need my permission to do anything, but if she does want me to play around, major plot points need heads-up. It's common courtesy; missing it is a major knee-jerk for me, because I've run into one person too many who didn't extend it, and that resulted in being THIS close to me shutting down any RP. At the very least, it turns 'pretendy fun time games' into wtff? I'm outta here. And ... right, I haven't taken part of the plotting. There wasn't a google doc - which you two decided to crap over the plotting in, anyway; nor have I had suggestions when you were wondering how to get something done.
I know for a fact that neither me, nor Anna, had any clue about that. ANY. There wasn't an ooc post in the journal, there wasn't a note where all of us would be guaranteed to see it, let alone the courtesy to wait for an acknowledgment. (And yes, I do wait for acknowledgment in cases such as these. I can point out examples.)
If mentioning something that jabbed into a spot that was already raw passive aggressive, without naming names and without calling people out, sure. I was passive aggressive. I am stepping back; Ellen is on hiatus, which is as far back as I have ever - ever - stepped back with a muse. I honestly clear with her - and wait for her response about it - MUCH smaller things that happen with common playthings. I did expect the same level of respect and consideration as I extend.