You...sometimes people make me not want to bother
Okay....
We all have that friend that we'd do anything for, that we HAVE done anything for and that we laugh and smile and have fun with. But there comes to a point when you start to realize that maybe things aren't always so chipper in friend land. Because say: You're there to help, support, listen. And then in turn they can make you feel like the only time you are useful is...
when they have a shitty day.
You know what? If you don't want to chat, just SAY so. Not have these one word conversations that make me think you are fucking PISSED at ME. You logged onto AIM, nothing you NEVER do anymore, and when I IM you, you blow me off. You know, the person that has listened to you bitch about how no one ever IMs you when you are on AIM.
Alright, fine, here is a news flash. Get your head out of your ass, please, and look at the conversations you have. You might not think it matters? But it does. When someone DOES IM you, a little politeness goes a long fucking way. Especially considering how long we've damn well known each other.
You know those friends you've been saying that made you feel like they were taking advantage of you?
That's been how you've made me feel more and more lately. The fact that YES, and I've TOLD you this before and it doesn't seem to EVER click in your head, but it has ALWAYS been ME going to YOU when we want to do things. ALWAYS. The first time you even fucking came to Oxford was when Ali came down too. Which, excellent, fucking awesome. It took another friend of ours to get you to come see ME. Thank you. Glad to know that I mean that much as a friend that you won't come visit without incentive. I'm also happy to know even though you want to try things or teach me new games that I'm always up for it, but YOU can't return that favor.
Just.....omg.
Enough. I'm tired of feeling like the only one that tries to keep things going. At the rate things are going, I sometimes have to wonder why I'd want to move closer to you, when I could go closer to other friends that give a little more back. At least when I call them and they happen to be reading, they tell me instead of letting me feel like a piece of shit for interrupting things.
We all have that friend that we'd do anything for, that we HAVE done anything for and that we laugh and smile and have fun with. But there comes to a point when you start to realize that maybe things aren't always so chipper in friend land. Because say: You're there to help, support, listen. And then in turn they can make you feel like the only time you are useful is...
when they have a shitty day.
You know what? If you don't want to chat, just SAY so. Not have these one word conversations that make me think you are fucking PISSED at ME. You logged onto AIM, nothing you NEVER do anymore, and when I IM you, you blow me off. You know, the person that has listened to you bitch about how no one ever IMs you when you are on AIM.
Alright, fine, here is a news flash. Get your head out of your ass, please, and look at the conversations you have. You might not think it matters? But it does. When someone DOES IM you, a little politeness goes a long fucking way. Especially considering how long we've damn well known each other.
You know those friends you've been saying that made you feel like they were taking advantage of you?
That's been how you've made me feel more and more lately. The fact that YES, and I've TOLD you this before and it doesn't seem to EVER click in your head, but it has ALWAYS been ME going to YOU when we want to do things. ALWAYS. The first time you even fucking came to Oxford was when Ali came down too. Which, excellent, fucking awesome. It took another friend of ours to get you to come see ME. Thank you. Glad to know that I mean that much as a friend that you won't come visit without incentive. I'm also happy to know even though you want to try things or teach me new games that I'm always up for it, but YOU can't return that favor.
Just.....omg.
Enough. I'm tired of feeling like the only one that tries to keep things going. At the rate things are going, I sometimes have to wonder why I'd want to move closer to you, when I could go closer to other friends that give a little more back. At least when I call them and they happen to be reading, they tell me instead of letting me feel like a piece of shit for interrupting things.