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pay_the_piper) wrote2009-01-30 11:33 pm
pay_the_piper) wrote2009-01-30 11:33 pm
State of EJ
As many have noticed...
I've not done any RP lately. I don't know if I can really explain what goes on in my head, but here's a shot:
For whatever irrational reason, I have come to think of RP as more like a second job instead of a hobby. I feel like people are waiting for me impatiently (regardless of if they really are, anyone that knows my head, well knows that it comes up with assumptions on its own without logic or reason.) It is frustrating for me, because I can't seem to write as well as I feel I should. Maybe this will change once I get back into school to finish up my English and History degrees.
That being said, there is still no word on who and when people are being laid off, so everyone in the lab is still thinking about it. We all make little jokes about it, Russ had a five year award, and made the comment: "I hope to make it another five....though things aren't looking for good for that now."
Richard even made a joke about the 401Ks today during Joel's 35 year 'party' (really, Tanya just dragged us all out of the lab to go stand there and clap, I was busy...but I went), he said Joel couldn't retire yet because he had to rebuild his "point 401". It was funny, at least, at the time. Jered's been bitching about how the CEO's monthly paycheck could pay 20 techs, and that the man could just take a pay cut.
Of course Jered made the comment to me the other day, discussing what we'd do if laid off, that he didn't know what...and that he might just go drive forklifts. Apparently they make 17 bucks an hour. He then asked if I liked Texas...which went down the road of 'no'. And there was then an argument about the University of Texas vs. Texas A&M. ((I was raised an Aggie, mind you.))
Also with work, I flipped some wires on one of my connectors for a TTRM ((a down hole instrument that measures line tension, borehole temperature and mud resistivity)), Jason took it over when a Z-Density came in and Terry wanted me to rebuild it. Jason pointed it out, and just said to be more careful...and then the next day he informed me he'd done the same thing on another TTRM he was working on at the same time. Amused, I pointed out that at least mine were the same color, his weren't.
The Z-Density I'm working on is pretty much done. I need to break the housing over the electronics, and then change the o-rings and such. But I'm ready to hook it up and test. Which is nice.
And that is pretty much it. I mean, I'm tired...have been all week. Thursdays and Wednesday I was ready to weep from the knots in my back and just...blah. God help me, I've cut and bruised myself enough this week to look like I've been in a fist fight. And the weather was just glorious on Wed. Oh yes...
Not.
I've not done any RP lately. I don't know if I can really explain what goes on in my head, but here's a shot:
For whatever irrational reason, I have come to think of RP as more like a second job instead of a hobby. I feel like people are waiting for me impatiently (regardless of if they really are, anyone that knows my head, well knows that it comes up with assumptions on its own without logic or reason.) It is frustrating for me, because I can't seem to write as well as I feel I should. Maybe this will change once I get back into school to finish up my English and History degrees.
That being said, there is still no word on who and when people are being laid off, so everyone in the lab is still thinking about it. We all make little jokes about it, Russ had a five year award, and made the comment: "I hope to make it another five....though things aren't looking for good for that now."
Richard even made a joke about the 401Ks today during Joel's 35 year 'party' (really, Tanya just dragged us all out of the lab to go stand there and clap, I was busy...but I went), he said Joel couldn't retire yet because he had to rebuild his "point 401". It was funny, at least, at the time. Jered's been bitching about how the CEO's monthly paycheck could pay 20 techs, and that the man could just take a pay cut.
Of course Jered made the comment to me the other day, discussing what we'd do if laid off, that he didn't know what...and that he might just go drive forklifts. Apparently they make 17 bucks an hour. He then asked if I liked Texas...which went down the road of 'no'. And there was then an argument about the University of Texas vs. Texas A&M. ((I was raised an Aggie, mind you.))
Also with work, I flipped some wires on one of my connectors for a TTRM ((a down hole instrument that measures line tension, borehole temperature and mud resistivity)), Jason took it over when a Z-Density came in and Terry wanted me to rebuild it. Jason pointed it out, and just said to be more careful...and then the next day he informed me he'd done the same thing on another TTRM he was working on at the same time. Amused, I pointed out that at least mine were the same color, his weren't.
The Z-Density I'm working on is pretty much done. I need to break the housing over the electronics, and then change the o-rings and such. But I'm ready to hook it up and test. Which is nice.
And that is pretty much it. I mean, I'm tired...have been all week. Thursdays and Wednesday I was ready to weep from the knots in my back and just...blah. God help me, I've cut and bruised myself enough this week to look like I've been in a fist fight. And the weather was just glorious on Wed. Oh yes...
Not.
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I am still keeping my fingers crossed for you, and everybody, employment-wise.
Regarding RP... Remember. Pretendy fun-time games. Yes, there are writers who don't see it as such and actually will grow impatient about tags. And there are some who don't. I know how I am, and that is - sometimes tags come slam-up right there and quickly - and sometimes they don't. Right now, for me they mostly don't. Same about writing.
Just so you know. I am looking forward to each tag of yours - both in thread(s) we have together or in stuff that I read along - and I cherish it when it comes, rather than grow, um, fidgety about it not having come sooner. And about writing... unless you're trying to really sell something, the whole point is to tell stories - and you tell interesting stories and you tell them well. That is what I see. I hope that, when you are ready and feel good about this, you'll be telling more. But pressure isn't exactly the way for this to happen.
We'll get there. No rush.
<3
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For no reason except that he was funny. And everyone wanted to fuck him. It wasn't really what I wanted as far as RP went.
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Is that why you set up the second Hermes account? >.> but yeah, I think it so makes sense to not want just that, as far as RP goes. I have a total manwhore of a muse - who is the most freaking interesting character I play. And I love playing off the, um, entertainment bits. But writing out the rest? The way he handles anything that life throws at him? I adore that. Ahem. But yeah, I grok you on that account. FYI, I love what I've seen of Hermes.
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But I just, ug. I wanted to do something interesting, and even when I redid everything it just fell right back into the same themes and such. I was a bit disappointed, because I didn't want to do most of what others wanted, and I felt kinda bad for it. ((It goes along with most of my discontent with RP in general, people always want to play something and I'm usually willing to do it. But I'm getting tired of giving, and giving and not getting what I want in return. Granted, very few people are willing to travel the dark roads I want to hike.))
And yes, Hermes is fun. I love him, but I get easily frustrated with people simply wanting to sex him. For fucks sake, most of the time he looks 14!! Ug. You've heard that rant before.
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I've been missing you. But I can understand needing to take a break. Just wanted to poke my head in and give a hug and let you know I'm thinking about you and hoping for the very best with the job situation. I know how it is. We live in scary times and I think everyone, no matter how solid their job seems at the moment, has that fear of being laid off in the back of their mind. I hope it doesn't happen.
As for RP, I can understand how you feel. I hope I haven't been one of the people who take and never ask what you want. You know I love writing with you, and I've enjoyed Percy and Hermes so much. And anytime you want to do anything with Anson or any of my characters, just say the word. I'm always open to anything you might want to do. :)