So you are upset with me for being no better than you at poking? I told everyone I thought that really needed and wanted to know about the date. I hadn't heard from you about any of it since the day we'd talked about it, so I assumed (yes, assumed) that you were.not.interested.
Especially since you seemed active elsewhere. Just think about how that looks to me? You are writing and doing all these things elsewhere, and you don't stop to double check if/when I wanted to do things?
Can you honestly tell me you don't understand how that upsets me? I have poked and poked some people to play with me in the past, and gotten threads to start that never finish. I got tired of it. I decided I wasn't going to be that person that had to beg for RP anymore. You've told me you've seen my post and wanted to play but didn't know how to write in, but to me I hear "I saw your post, but I just don't think you are interesting to play with."
So instead of letting it get me down, imagined or not, I just put it in a box over there and focus on moving my plot onward with the people that actively take part with me. Would I have loved for you guys to come play? Yes! Of course! But after a while? After seeing how poking would lead to a brief flurry of activity, then die? I decided there wasn't a point to setting myself up for disappointment.
I am tired of not know what is going on. Because honestly? I've been there too, Kiki. Ana would tell me things like I should know them, and have no idea why I was expect to reply to things, or what was going on. I've sat there and watched people I wanted to play with, play with everyone else and ignore me when I said I wanted to play something. I am not the wallflower, damnit, and I refuse to be regulated into someone's corner as a sidenote.
You cannot expect things to improve on the communication if you aren't willing to work on it yourself as well.
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Date: 2009-11-16 11:43 pm (UTC)Especially since you seemed active elsewhere. Just think about how that looks to me? You are writing and doing all these things elsewhere, and you don't stop to double check if/when I wanted to do things?
Can you honestly tell me you don't understand how that upsets me? I have poked and poked some people to play with me in the past, and gotten threads to start that never finish. I got tired of it. I decided I wasn't going to be that person that had to beg for RP anymore. You've told me you've seen my post and wanted to play but didn't know how to write in, but to me I hear "I saw your post, but I just don't think you are interesting to play with."
So instead of letting it get me down, imagined or not, I just put it in a box over there and focus on moving my plot onward with the people that actively take part with me. Would I have loved for you guys to come play? Yes! Of course! But after a while? After seeing how poking would lead to a brief flurry of activity, then die? I decided there wasn't a point to setting myself up for disappointment.
I am tired of not know what is going on. Because honestly? I've been there too, Kiki. Ana would tell me things like I should know them, and have no idea why I was expect to reply to things, or what was going on. I've sat there and watched people I wanted to play with, play with everyone else and ignore me when I said I wanted to play something. I am not the wallflower, damnit, and I refuse to be regulated into someone's corner as a sidenote.
You cannot expect things to improve on the communication if you aren't willing to work on it yourself as well.